Life in a Shell

Birds

2009-03-07T23:11:00.002Z

Much like the birds;
the bird mommy needs to go to where there are worms and take the worms home, if not, what can she use to feed her babies who are in need of the food?
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What if her babies don't think they need any food? Or if her babies refuse to be fed? The mommy...would still go and find food, store them up...and hope that one day she can convince her babies, or hope that her babies would realise, that they can't grow, or die, unless they take food.

BCCC

2009-02-24T10:51:00.002Z

It's been a while since I last felt that I HAVE to find pen and paper to write some thoughts down. (I was on the train and didn't have my computer with me...) So this is what I wrote...
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With a headache and feeling extremely tired and mentally exhausted, I still can't bring myself to rest. My heart is pounding so fast and holding back my tears, I wish I will arrive home quick and cry my heart out. I'm having such mixed feelings - but the element of sorrow isn't one of them. I'm overjoyed, but confused. I am excited about the changes that are to come, but I am also afraid of having to leave what I am at now. I don't want to leave home - BCCC.
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BCCC, the place where I've gone through so much. Ups and downs, laughters and tears. And most importantly, this is where I turned to Christ, where I was baptised, where I receive my spiritual food, where I receive love and learn to give, where I have fellowship with brothers and sisters, where we support each other and grow in the love and words of God.
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I can't stop my tears now. But I finally realise why my tears are flowing - it's thankful tears. Thanks Father for what He has done for me and will do for me, for all the blessings that I've received and yet to receive, for all the joy that I have because of knowing Him. Whatever lies ahead I need not be afraid because He'll lead me. He'll use me for His glory when I follow His plan. He is my rock, my strength, my shield, my comfort my all. Praise the Lord for He is worthy of our praise. Glory be to God and may everything that has breath praise Him!
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"Shout for joy and sing your praises to the King,
Lift your hands and let your Hallelujah ring,
Come before His throne to worship and adore,
Enter joyfully now the presence of the Lord.

You are my Creator, You are my Deliverer,
You are my Redeemer You are Lord,
And You are my Healer,
You are my Provider,
You are my Shepherd and my Guide,
Jesus Lord and King I worship you."

The Pit

2009-01-21T15:29:00.003Z

I was trapped, chained down in a pit.
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When I was freed, I was overjoyed. I thought to myself, finally, I can make a new start.
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But then I realised, I am still down in the pit. How do I get out of it?
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One way is to climb upwards, towards the blinding light.
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The pit is deep. Not only it'll be a long way up, there are snakes and thorns, there are stones and rocks rolling down from above, there are more traps, which are more dangerous, and unavoidable.
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There is another opening inside the pit. It doens't go upwards towards the blinding light, but it is a possible way out of the pit. I was told that it's long and winding with a lot of branches which could lead you to walk an unnecessarily long way.
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While I am standing still here in the pit, thinking, everyone from outside is shouting "Just climb upwards already. It is the obvious way for you. For you were strong enough to free yourself from the chains of the trap, you have what it takes to reach the top. Stop thinking and just climb."
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Little do they know, it cost an arm and a leg to struggle free from the chain, even though the chains were rusty and brittle to start with.
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With the wounds still bleeding, I started climbing upwards under their compelling urges.
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I raised my hands and hold onto the highest rock that I can reach. Using all the energy that I have left, I lifted myself up. Finally, I am off the ground.
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Having been so focused on searching for a way out, I forgot what's inside the pit.
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Underneath me, a hand stretched and grabbed my right ankle.

Smoke

2009-01-06T12:35:00.005Z

So this is what EVERYONE should be aware of...
(Click on image to go to source - BBC news)

排毒美顏寶

2008-12-19T03:26:00.002Z

Sorry about the sudden use of a Chinese title - it's the name of a detoxification product in Hong Kong.
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The reason I mention this is because what happened to me recently, is like detox.
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Well, rather than taking it voluntarily, I was/am forced to detox.
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Sudden changes in our lives make us think. Especially if it makes what seems so stable become questionable, and require our full attention to solve the problem. Why this is happening was the question I asked. But after a few days, I kind of realise that this is like a detox programme for me.
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It made me reflect on my own actions, what I've done, what I should have but not done. It's like a smack in my face to wake me up, to wake up my heart and my senses, which became so dull because of the repetitive everyday life and everything that I took for granted. It made me realise what is important in our lives, and more importantly, what it means by trusting in God and obey.
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Dear heavenly Father thank you for giving me this detox programme. I/we, do not know what will come out of the detox programme, but I/we shall trust and obey.

Important people

2008-12-11T07:46:00.005Z

There are important people in our lives.
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Our parents, partners, friends.
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These people know us and in the same way we know them so well. We treat them preciously, we keep in contact as much as we can afford to, to let them know how important they are to us. And of course, we would be saddened if we lose them or cannot see/talk to them again one day.
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About half a year ago I lost someone, well something, important.
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It's my Toshiba laptop.
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Toshiba knew me so well. On the outside Toshiba looked just as healthy as it was. But it wouldn't wake up again, it wouldn't communicate with me again. The thought of deserting it forever to gather dust, or even worse getting rid of it, churns my stomach.
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After parting with Toshiba, I borrowed my boyfriend's Compaq temporarily. We shared joy and tears together over the past 6 months. It helped me wrote up the whole thesis and we have become such good partners.
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But in 10 days time, we'll have to bid farewell - it's time to return Compaq to its rightful owner.
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All these have/will become memories. And slowly, I am now building up a new friendship with my new friend CompaqII. Together with CompaqII we'll get through a lot of challenges ahead of us, and I'm sure time will be fun just as it was with Toshiba and Compaq.

The end of the tunnel

2008-11-12T21:01:00.003Z

Finally..after 4 years, I am out of the tunnel.
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I was chatting with a friend who is having similar experience. He described this as "walking in the dark". I think this is a very good description. Over the past 4 years I was like walking blind-folded. Being unable to see anything and with lost of obstacles, it was very difficult to go on.
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I did not have faith on my own strength or wisdom - I never thought I have what it takes to graduate even before I started, and even now I feel that being able to walk out of this tunnel really is a miracle. The faith which kept me walking forward was that, for God to put me in here, there must be a purpose that I should serve. There must be a purpose to the process which I had to go through, and a purpose to the final result, whether I succeed or fail. And so, with the support of many people, I kept walking forward.
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Praise the Lord. I am so blessed, to have by my side, my dearest Dad, brothers and sisters from church, family and friends. All of you, your prayers and support mean so much to me. And I'm so blessed to have a really supportive supervisor and lab colleagues. Thank you so much, everyone.
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Mum, I did it.
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Now that I am out of the tunnel, I look back at it. What really happened? What did I gain/lost? What purpose did I serve? I still can't see the answers to these questions. I may start to see them, little by little, in the years to come.
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Ahead of me are many more tunnels which I'll have to walk through. I don't know what kind of tunnels they'll be like. But I believe, by walking with Jesus, by staying close to Him, by being obedient, I can walk through them all.

BCCC

2008-10-22T13:44:00.001Z

1st submission!~

2008-10-20T16:02:00.003Z

Finally...I submitted the it to the examiners!!~ I want a good night sleep now...

Thanks everyone's support. Thanks Jesus for giving me the strength to get through this (I know I've still got the viva to do but submitting the thesis itself is a miracle to me...). To God be the glory.

"Give thanks with a grateful heart
give thanks to the holy one
Give thanks because He's given Jesus Christ His son
Give thanks with a grateful heart
give thanks to the holy one
Give thanks because He's given Jesus Christ His son

And now let the weak say I am strong
Let the poor say I am rich
Because of what the Lord has done for us
And now let the weak say I am strong
Let the poor say I am rich
Because of what the Lord has done for us
Give thanks"

Closer~

2008-10-01T00:48:00.004Z

Finally I finished writing the discussion!~ So the first draft is done~~Thanks be to God~

Now moving onto the corrections...it'll take a few days to do...

Time is so tight....hope everything will go accordance to plan from now on~~

Fight on!!~

Recent activities:

2008-09-15T13:51:00.009Z

Yu Yang/He HanBin

2008-08-14T03:45:00.005Z

I am loving this pair!! The energy the power the aggression the youthfulness!!~

~Kangaroo meat~

2008-08-12T15:23:00.006Z

(click on image to enlarge), or visit this link:
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/uk/7551125.stm

And this...from Nodame...(e.g. the label says "Kangaroo's meat)

hahahahaahaahahahahaaa....

Food..food...

2008-07-19T00:12:00.002Z

I need some food...

I can now totally understand that we should be grateful when we have food to eat....

♥～らぶらぶとんどん～♥

2008-07-18T01:26:00.003Z

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ありがとう♥
(=^3^=)

Developers

2008-07-16T17:37:00.003Z

After reading this piece of news this popped into my mind:

Usually, how do these issues get resolved?

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/asia-pacific/7509614.stm

I remember reading/watching this kind of news in HK since I was young (very young (^O^)), and also in the UK over and over again...but I never get to see how these stories end - either because they were not reported or I didn't follow it...

Anyone? It seems quite impossible to me that the home owners can stay there forever...or they would suddenly decide to move out after causing all the commotions...

So there are only two possibilities: (1) Do they usually get forced out of their property, or (2) would developers offer them a bigger sum of money/better quality property? (3) Is there a 3rd possible way?

All I Once Held Dear (Knowing You)

2008-07-15T09:23:00.003Z

Do we really know what's most precious, what's most important?....
Have we got the order of priorities in our life right?...
Are our eyes clear?...
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"All I once held dear, built my life upon,
All this world reveres and wars to own;
All I once thought gain I have counted loss,
Spent and worthless now compared to this.

Knowing You, Jesus, knowing You
There is no greater thing.
You're my all, You're the best,
You're my joy, my righteousness,
And I love You Lord.

Now my heart's desire is to know You more,
To be found in You and know as Yours,
To possess by faith what I could not earn
All surpassing gift of righteousness

Knowing You, Jesus, knowing You
There is no greater thing.
You're my all, You're the best,
You're my joy, my righteousness,
And I love You Lord.

Oh to know the power of Your risen life,
And to know You in Your sufferings;
To become like You in Your death, my Lord,
So with You to live and never die.

Knowing You, Jesus, knowing You
There is no greater thing.
You're my all, You're the best,
You're my joy, my righteousness,
And I love You Lord."

Genoa

2008-07-07T17:33:00.008Z

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It's been a while since the last update..again..another proof that I have been working extremely hard...hahahahha..(*^^*)
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I was in Genoa last week for a few days. It was a very nice trip and the city was very nice as well - it was voted "European Culture Capital of 2004".
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The weather was hot and sunny (in contrast to the wet and miserable weather in the UK!~) It is so different from any other cities that I have been to and it is so...Italian..hahahahha..ヾ(^▽^)ノ
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Food was good too; and although English is not that widely spoken there, I was at least able to ask for directions and buy food..(^_^;)
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However, didn't have enough time to visit all the places that I would like to...so there is definitely more than that met my eyes. Even though it's not a hot tourist spot comparing to Venice or Florence or Rome, it has its own special side.
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The only downsides were, I got rip-off by the taxi driver~(+_+)~(he charged me 10 Euros more than it should, and I only found out when my friend told me about the "proper" fair after I am back in the UK(+_+;)
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The flights were terrible getting out of Genoa (it happened not only to my flight, but to other people's flights as well!~) Maybe it's a good idea to get the train after all...from Genoa to Pisa, then fly from Pisa to other destinations...(-_-;)
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Last 3 days~

2008-06-06T17:20:00.002Z

Finally got all the antibodies to work!~ There were some hiccupps and I'll have to repeat one of the experiments tomorrow; but if everything goes as planned, I'll finish with all the experiments by Sunday night!~
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Tonight need to take photos of the sections that I stained today...tomorrow finish an experiment that started today and start another two...
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Fight on!!~

It worked!~

2008-06-02T19:55:00.001Z

The titration which I did today worked!!~~
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Now it's time to take pictures of them!!~~ And titrate another antibody tomorrow~~(^_^)
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Fight on!!~

Yay!~

2008-06-02T15:23:00.004Z

Yay!~ All the cryosectioning are done!~~ No more freezing my left hand off at -22゜C to -28゜C!~ ^O^
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(Well~~if all the immunostaining go as planned that is...(・・;))
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Now I've scheduled for myself a week to complete immunostaining of approximately...200 sections...゜ロ゜;...oh, plus taking photos of all of them....=_=;
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Fight on!~

30 more~

2008-05-31T16:46:00.002Z

All the follicle sections needed are cut!!~ Now only need to cut 30 normal skin sections!!~~ Fight on!!!~

Just a bit more...

2008-05-31T12:05:00.001Z

Another 5 hair follicles and 30 skin sections...then no more cutting with the cryostat!!~~ Fight on!!~

It's been a while!~

2008-05-28T21:24:00.002Z

I haven't updated my blog for a while~~can tell that I've been a good girl working very hard on my project...hahahahahaha...
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Really..it's been really stressful that I just can't stop thinking about my work, even when taking a break...And the worse part of the year is yet to come! {'<_<'}
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And..I haven't even been to London lately because I just can't leave my work..
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Last week went on a trip to Bolton Abbey; it was refreshing after having been stuck in the office/lab for so long~~and the weather was very nice and sunny..(a bit cold though (*^_^*)
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Ok, time to go home to get some rest; tomorrow another day in the lab!~~ Fight on!~

More about this song...

2008-04-15T17:44:00.003Z

Just a bit more about this song...
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I am loving this song. It's been a long time (years!) since I last listened to one song again and again for the whole day - well, whole days.
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(And you may have noticed that I changed the lyrics slightly to make clear the message that I am getting out of it :D)

當你孤單你會想起誰

2008-04-14T21:47:00.006Z

你的心情總在飛,
什麼事都要去追,
想抓住一點安慰,
你總是喜歡在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤單的滋味
你的心那麼脆,一碰就會碎,經不起一點風吹
你的身邊總是要許多人陪,你最害怕每天的天黑，
但是天總會黑,人總要離別,誰能永遠與你伴隨,
而孤單的滋味,誰都要面對,不只是你我會感覺到疲憊.

當你孤單你會想起誰,你想不想找個人來陪
你的快樂傷悲,主耶穌能體會,祂對你的愛永不悔.

Weak point

2008-03-25T10:03:00.003Z

After all these years...now I know where my weak point is.
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Knowing my weak point means now I know how to deal with it and prevent it from happenning.
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Just as the teachings say, after becoming a Christian makes one more sensitive to their sin, and see more and more of one's own iniquities.
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And after seeing it, I can now ask Father in my prayers, to help me overcome it.
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Thank you Father for letting me see and giving me strength.

Heresies

2008-03-04T13:14:00.003Z

This weekend I learned a lot. On Saturday we had student fellowship with the topic "Heresies". Then again on Sunday morning bible study, we changed from usual bible study to discuss more about heresies.
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Before these 2 sessions I thought I do know a fair bit about heresay and was looking forward to just know a bit deeper on what they are. But after listening to the speakers, it surprised me how little I knew, and how vulnerable I am to deceiving "facts" because of my ignorance.
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"But there were also false prophets among the people, just as there will be false teachers among you. They will secretly introduce destructive heresies, even denying the sovereign Lord who bought them--bringing swift destruction on themselves." (2 Peter 2:1)

"As Jesus was sitting on the Mount of Olives, the disciples came to him privately. "Tell us," they said, "when will this happen, and what will be the sign of your coming and of the end of the age?" Jesus answered: "Watch out that no one deceives you. For many will come in my name, claiming, 'I am the Christ,' and will deceive many......At that time many will turn away from the faith and will betray and hate each other, and many false prophets will appear and deceive many people." (Matthew 24: 3-5, 10-11)

There are still a lot for me to learn, and most important of all is to strengthen my knowledge in the Bible, so that I will be able to tell what's right and what's wrong.
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Another lesson for me from these sessions was that, we are responsible for what we tell other people about the gospel. We have to first make sure that what we know is right, so that when we are spreading the gospel, we are spreading what's written in the Bible, but not our own or other people's opinion.

"For we do not preach ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves as your servants for Jesus' sake." (2 Corinthians 4:5)

"I am astonished that you are so quickly deserting the one who called you by the grace of Christ and are turning to a different gospel-- which is really no gospel at all. Evidently some people are throwing you into confusion and are trying to pervert the gospel of Christ. But even if we or an angel from heaven should preach a gospel other than the one we preached to you, let him be eternally condemned! As we have already said, so now I say again: If anybody is preaching to you a gospel other than what you accepted, let him be eternally condemned! Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ. I want you to know, brothers, that the gospel I preached is not something that man made up." (Galatians 1:6-11)

Fast forward

2008-02-24T21:41:00.003Z

This week has been...very special. It's like life has fast forwarded that it's such rich experience of life.
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At the start of the week I was very excited and full of hope. I could finally get my hands onto doing an experiment which I have waited for 6 months. The data which I have been looking forward to getting, and also needed very badly for the research, could finally all be generated by end of the week.
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Then it started to go downhill. The first set of data came through on Tuesday and it's not what I have expected. Not holding my hopes high for the rest of the experiment, I still had to finish the whole experiment for the rest of the week. Thursday got another set of data, similarly diappointing results. Then on Friday, the final set of data came out. Just when I thought it couldn't get any worse, the worst appeared in the experiment results.
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Then so much went through my head. What can I do next for the research? Is it still do-able? Can I change the direction of the project (but now, at the 4th year?) Can I still graduate? If I can't gradaute, what would happen to my life? Would I still be able to find a job? I felt dizzy when all these questions went through my head, getting more and more pessimistic.
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But then, these all stopped when these popped up in my head:

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." (Matthew 6:34)

"Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest? "Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith!" (Luke 12:22-28)
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Then I calmed down, and entered the weekend, which is so rich.
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- I had the chance to chat with lots of our department's prospective students; they are young, and full of hope, enthusiasm, dreams, working towards their goal with all their efforts. It's so encouraging chatting to them.

- Then received a phone call from him. Knowing that he had such a good and productive time during the long break and has now safely returned. I was so moved when he told me about how good it was seeing his parents, how important his parents are to him, how he loves them and how much he wants to do for them. And of course it's good to hear his voice again after a month.

- Then came student fellowship - new friends want to join our church; seeing the growth of brothers and sisters, how gifted they are, how they work hard in developing their gifts to serve God; how some of them may still has a lot that they don't understand but are willing and humble to learn; how some of them maybe going through hard times; how we all care about each other, tending each other's needs...etc

- Saturday night got a phone call from a sister in Christ, how blessed her life is, how she is going through decision making, how she is holding her faith even going through hard times, how she cares about and feel for her friends, how she's panicking but find peace in God...

- Sunday - death, birth, illness, birthdays, anniversaries, growth, difficulties, unity, kindness...
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Thank you Father for giving me such a bad, but also rich and blessed week.

What would happen next

2008-02-13T14:00:00.004Z

They published the cartoons, got blamed. They apologised, case closed - or not.

Two years later, there's a plot to kill the cartoonist. They retaliate by re-publishing the cartoons. I wonder what will happen next.

It seems that it'll be a vicious cycle.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/europe/7242258.stm

Take and give

2008-01-20T23:36:00.000Z

We all take and give everyday, from and to other people.
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I sure take a lot from other people; their advice, their company, their help, their thoughts, their love. But am I giving enough? Surely not.
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"'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.' The second is this: 'Love your neighbour as yourself.' There is no commandment greater than these." (Mark 12:30-31)
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Do I love God enough? Do I love my neighbours enough? Surely not. I've got a lot to learn.

2008

2008-01-02T21:27:00.000Z

First update for 2008. Happy New Year, and may your life be filled with joy, peace and blessings.
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This Christmas, I had the most wonderful time. How wonderful was it? A wonderful Christmas doesn't need to be one full of noise, gifts, food or drink. It's wonderful because it was spent remembering the birth of Christ with the one closest to you. It was wonderful because the time shared is precious.
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Just before Christmas we played a game in our fellowship - Secret angels. We put each of our names onto a piece of paper, fold it, put into a bag, mixed, and each of us drew one paper. And there we became the secret angel of the person whose name's on the paper that we drew, from then till 31st Dec.
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I still don't know who my secret angel is...but I think he/she must have prayed hard for me over the holiday, for I had this most wonderful Christmas :D

Merry Christmas~

2007-12-24T17:34:00.000Z

Nearly forgot to say...Merry Christmas everyone~
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'For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.' (John 3:16)

Moving the brain a bit..

2007-12-24T17:25:00.000Z

The church family...the warmth...the difference? The resistance to changes? Getting out of the comfort zone?...Selfishness, responsibility?...being more 'mature' in Christ?...What to do?...
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My wisdom is so limited for I cannot tell what is in front of us...for I don't know what's best for us...Father help me...am I doing the right thing?...or have I been wrong all along...if so how do I un-do it? Take away my selfishness and my pride Lord and make me a blessing, but not a stone which stumbles others.
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The seed of weed...seems harmless but when it grows to the full it causes great trouble. Be alert and beware of them. The sooner they are removed the easier.

The faces

2007-12-09T22:07:00.000Z

Just now in the shower I was thinking, we look at people's faces. When we meet someone for the first time, or when we are still not too familiar with someone, we tend to look at the face more to try to know a bit better about that particular person.
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As time goes, as we get to know the person better, we look at the face less.
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I am not sure if this applies to everyone, or if it's just me. I do tend to look at the people I know better less in their face, which, I feel...isn't a good thing.
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Looking at other people's face when we see them shows our respect for them, shows our interest in them, shows that we care about them. It doesn't mean when we don't look at other people's face we don't care about them. We maybe still do, but that becomes more like involuntary innate action than something that we put lots of efforts in to doing eagerly.
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I must not let my care for people around me slip into the background of the often too busy ways of life. I must bring it forward, and care about the people I love actively, and sincerely. I must look at their face more, to find out more about them, to understand more about them, to give them higher importance in my life.

Help Father

2007-12-05T23:12:00.001Z

Father please cleanse me~
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It's been long since I did the last entry. Have been very busy on various things, including being ill, consecutively, lost count already.
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Father please help me~
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I can now experience the feeling that "fame doens't matter". Hahahaha...thought it'd be uplifting, but it's not. The feeling is plain, it's only "oh, I won, ok, that's fine, another thing to put onto the CV."
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Father I am weak. Please give me strength. I don't want to return to the starting point again. I'm going to persevere this time.

When I look into your holiness

2007-10-22T21:19:00.000Z

When I look into Your holiness.
When I gaze into Your loveliness.
When all the things that surround
Become shadows in the light of You.
When I found the joy of reaching Your heart.
When my will becomes enthralled in Your Love.
When all the things that surround
Become shadows in the light of You.

I worship You, I worship You.
The reason I live, is to worship You.
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"You are my strength; hold my hand, walk with me in this road of life."

Cold~

2007-09-26T11:09:00.000Z

It's been a while since I last updated my blog.
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Everyone had been busy doing preparation for the Orientation night. It was great and now we have to prepare for the next event - the drama night.
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Although it's a lot of hard work but it's very enjoyable, since I am very honoured that Father chose me to be one of those who're serving him.
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The research work is struggling a bit. There are too many unfortunate events slowing its progress that it's just plain depressing. Now I am preparing the slides for next week's presentation and I just wish that it'll be over and done with soon.
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And sitting in this office is so cold!!! Can we have the windows fixed so that they would close properly please...and also, can we have the heating on please?~

more...more...and more!!~

2007-08-24T10:19:00.000Z

bbbbbbrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...
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I'm going to have to cut more sections, then immunofluorescence....then take pictures of them again.......
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bbbbbbbbrrrrrrrrrrrr...................
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But - "Lazy hands make a man poor, but diligent hands bring wealth. (Proverbs 10:4)"
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Fight on!!~

Books

2007-08-23T20:37:00.003Z

Just now in the shower I was thinking about some books that I read as a kid -
I read the set of Japanese manga "漂流教室 (The Drifting Classroom)" while in a friend's home; then read the book "Lord of the Flies", which was part of the syllabus of GCSE English.
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The two stories have different but similar settings:

- both are about a bunch of primary school kids accidentally drifted to a place where they are isolated, with no adults in charge. (Well in the manga there were a few teachers with them to start with but their life spans were very short.)

- both describes how these kids react to their new environment/situation.

- both showed the readers, how these kids, who are so pure, turned evil and even killed each other, when desparately trying to keep themselves alive.
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I found both of them quite...disturbing...(well, the manga isn't intended to be read by children). Not because of violence or anything like that, but probably because both of them illustrate so vividly how the kids pure as angels, can become killers in a matter of days, for survival - as if the seeds are always there inside them that we cannot see, that they only surface when they start growing after being triggered by these unfortunate events.
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"Surely I was sinful at birth, sinful from the time my mother conceived me." (Psalm 51:5)

"This righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus." (Romans 3:22-24)

la la la la~la la la la

2007-08-22T15:56:00.000Z

I've got some decent pictures~~I've got some decent pictures - of hair follicles!~
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After 2 months working on this...finally...I've got some decent sections + decent staining + decent pictures!!~~
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Puri puri purin~~~Puri Gorota!!~~~~

My weekend~

2007-08-13T12:28:00.001Z

リラックスリラックス

Changes

2007-08-01T10:14:00.000Z

IMO, what is wrong is wrong.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/uk/6914503.stm

Good job

2007-07-31T16:32:00.002Z

This is the most uplifting piece of news I've seen in a long time.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/americas/6916287.stm

It may not be doing much to start with, but over time it will surely have positive effects on the next generation, be it big or small. Maybe Wal-Mart is only trying to make a bigger profit, but whatever its intention, these toys are being promoted and children/parents are benefiting from this.

Challenge

2007-07-24T22:08:00.002Z

God is giving me a very big challenge now~~Making me step so far outside my comfort zone...I feel so uncomfortable working like this...

Hope this will end soon and I will learn something good out of it, and then my life will return to normal soon...Father please give me the strength to get through this...

The spirit

2007-07-14T20:48:00.001Z

Even if you are small, if you work hard, you can match up against anyone equally!

Rant

2007-07-04T21:34:00.001Z

I really wanted to rant about what happened today here. I typed a big passage but just before submitting it I just thought - forget it. However I rant here is not going to make a difference in real life. It's just going to make me look more stupid when I look back at this several years, or just months later.
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But one thing I have learned over the past few weeks - human are fearful creatures.

I am back~~~

2007-06-25T19:40:00.002Z

I went to downtown Vancouver for a conference for a week. (For more description about Vancouver, just check Wikitravel. All Wikitravel lacks are these two little comments here:)
(1) Comparing to where I am now, downtown Vancouver is a nice and well planned city. All the roads are straight and getting lost is nearly impossible.
(2) Comparing to where I am now, it is so extremely clean - no cigarette butts, no spits, no dog poo, no any poo or the smell of ammonia.
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The conference itself was great. Everyday was jam packed with lectures and workshops and I was exhausted. It was a great experience. Instead of having to sit forever in my office scartching my head trying to find out what's going on with just my computer and some research articles, for 3 and a half days in the conference, I was spoon fed all the latest information. It was gooooooood~~
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Apart from that, I've discovered something else during my time in Vancouver. I missed home. I actually missed home!!!~ (eeerrr....for me, the word "home" may actually mean my room, my bed, my computer, the Internet, food, freedom, and of course, my Sweet potato.) Day and night, I was hoping that I could go home soon~~
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Vancouver was a great place, but being "home" is better. I am back~

Life is...

2007-06-08T13:37:00.000Z

Busy. Haven't got time to update my blog recently. Don't even have time to read the news properly - that's bad. Will try to put up some nice pictures once I've got time to...
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End of my break now, got to go back to work. Today I am trying to cut some tissue sections on the cryostat (i.e. cutting tissue sections at -26 degree C). It's freezing off my left hand and now I can't type properly...

2 Timothy

2007-05-30T19:12:00.000Z

“Malaysia rejects Christian appeal”
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/asia-pacific/6703155.stm
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It makes me grieve.
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A friend of mine reminded me of this scripture:

“In fact, everyone who wants to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted (2 Timothy 3:12)

They say that your eyes are the windows to your soul...

2007-05-27T20:21:00.000Z

After eye lift surgery...

Fighters

2007-05-23T21:06:00.000Z

Taiwan shows off military muscle
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/asia-pacific/6657351.stm
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I don’t know how this news was reported in Taiwan and how its people are reacting to it. But looking at the photo in this link here it shows that children were getting excited as well, at least their parents are and they are getting their children involved.
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This annual "Han Kuang" (or "Chinese Glory") military drill, is being glorified. Defense is very important for any country; but are they sending the right messages to the kids?
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Having these fighters may mean the country is wealthy enough to buy them, and/or they have the necessary technology and knowledge to build/maintain/fly them...etc. But the message which it is giving me is, "If we get bombed, we can bomb them back. If they kill our people, we can kill their people in return." This is not something so glorious or worth celebrating about. This is something that shows how ugly human beings are, that we need to defend ourselves from each other with such things.

Chicken

2007-05-21T22:17:00.000Z

On Friday the 18th, we paid the Colonel a visit.There, the Colonel threw a feast for us. The two of us, in return to the Colonel's kindless, disregarded our hearts' outcry, ate 8 pieces of chicken, 4 bags of fries, 2 coleslaws and drank 1.5 litre of Pepsi. It was so enjoyable...such pleasure...But...I don't think we would visit the Colonel again for some time.
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I should learn to love my heart.

Thank you Jesus

2007-05-20T22:21:00.000Z

"But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, "Lord, save me!" Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?" (Matthew 14:30-31)

Bobbies

2007-05-15T16:58:00.000Z

Today in BBC news there is this article about bobbies are forced to waste time on making arrests for petty offences. Here's the link to the article:

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/uk/6656411.stm

I think the bobbies are doing some good jobs here. They are helping parents to
displine their kids (whether the parents are not doing their part at all, or not doing enough, or their kids are just too much for them), preventing them from becoming ASBOs, and thus, making this world a better place for us all and saving tax payer's money in the long term.

Dinner~

2007-05-15T16:53:00.000Z

They look so tasty, don't they?

Good night~

2007-05-11T07:44:00.000Z

After doing too much pipetting in the lab during the past 2 days that I got hard skin on my right thumb; after being up since 7:00am yesterday morning doing work until now (that's a total of 26 hours)..I think I deserve some sleep.
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Good night~ Or should I say good morning...
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(If you are wondering that pipetting means, click here

When I was young...

2007-05-08T20:26:00.000Z

When I was young I listen to the radio...
Now I am old and weak, I need my reading glasses to read...

Junk

2007-04-30T19:53:00.000Z

The junk that I ate yesterday...

Freedom

2007-04-28T23:15:00.000Z

Once upon a time on a rich piece of land, some Pink small fries are ruled by the Purple aristocrat...

National Pride

2007-04-27T16:20:00.000Z

Can pride feed you? No. Can pride quench your thirst? No. Can pride keep you warm? No. Can pride give you a shelter? No.
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Everyone makes mistakes, be it deliberate or undeliberate. Although whatever happened cannot be reverted, it is essential to be able to see one’s fault, to admit it, say one would never do it again (or at least try), and if possible, try to compensate for it. But taking the first step – "admitting ones' fault", is hard enough. Why? Pride.
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Why do we want to keep our pride so badly, sometimes to the extent of doing outrageous things, which at the end…would strip off the pride and expose the ugliness? The harder one tries to protect the pride, the quicker one would lose it. One with wisdom would choose to be humble instead of being proud.
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"The UK's role in the slave trade is a matter of "deep sorrow and regret", Prime Minister Tony Blair has said." "It is an opportunity for the United Kingdom to express our deep sorrow and regret for our nation's role in the slave trade and for the unbearable suffering, individually and collectively, it caused." (Quotes from BBC news)
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Being humble did not cost this country its pride.
"A man's pride brings him low, but a man of lowly spirit gains honor." (Proverbs 29:23)
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Let us learn - "When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom." (Proverbs 11:2)

One World One Dream

2007-04-27T08:22:00.000Z

The Olympics (I mean modern Olympics), as everyone knows, is a sporting event with participating athletes from different countries, all over the world. It is an event made for bringing people of different race and nationality together to compete with each other fairly in sports. It is an event which symbolise that people from different political and social background are all equal and can coexist in harmony.
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In harmony? Can we really live together in harmony?
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The moto behind the game is perfect. But we are not. We all have our own ideas and we all want to protect our own benefits. Therefore, creating a perfect Olympic event needs compromisation, by a lot of people, all with different motives behind hosting/participating in the game. This process, creates disharmony, making the perfect game imperfect.
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Look at the news, check out the history of the Game - doping, racist chanting, violence, ticket touting, disgruntlement on the choice of host cities, disgruntlement on the routes for the Olympic torch... From personal pride to national pride, from personal economic gain to national economic gain...it is quite far away from being perfect.
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One world? It can never happen. One dream? Yes, let us all dream about it.
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(Well, it's always better having dreams than not having any.)

MALDI-TOF

2007-04-26T20:08:00.000Z

This week I feel privilaged that I got to work with a sophisticated piece of equipment. It's called MALDI-TOF - one of the many types of mass spectrometers. Anyway, if you haven't got an idea what it is, I can translate it into something that everyone can understand - this piece of machine costs approximately 400,000 british pounds.
(Here's a link if anyone is interested in the details: Bruker Daltonics)
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Yes, I got nervous working with this machine, but the good thing is that it's controlled by a computer - I can't break it even if I want to - unless I start to hammer the machine physically.
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Hopefully I can get some interesting results for my project by using this machine. And it's certainly going to look good on my CV now that I have experience on using this thing.
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(I did have experience working on similar machines before...so why the excitement?? Eeeerrr...this one is newer...closer related to biological science...and I discovered that our university has this piece of equipment before my supervisor did!! hahahahaaahaha...)

I love Tesco

2007-04-22T22:50:00.000Z

Tesco is one fine example of a retail giant which have been very successful. It was founded in the UK in the early 20th century and is now an international retailer with businesses reaching Malaysia and China.
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Looking back at how much it has grown in the past 10 or so years just make my jaw drop. Isn't it exciting that, we are all witnessing it's continuous aquisition of its competitors' stores, seeing how it is becoming so dominant in the retail business bit by bit, catching the headlines of the news time after time for their creative and successful new business strategies? What is more exciting is that we are part of the process! Just by walking into the store mindlessly as a daily habit, spending a few pounds on some food to fill our stomach and get some necessities to live on, we are fuelling its growth so tremendously.
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See how important we are to their business? But also, see how important to us it has become? It is not that we cannot live without it, but it'd greatly inconvenience us if this retail chain disappears from the surface of the earth.
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Maybe you don't agree with what I've said, maybe you never shop at Tesco. But for me, I love Tesco. 4 years ago I didn't have a car, every now and then I used to go to shop in a Tesco 4 miles away from home by taking a bus, journey time = 1 hour each way. Now 4 years later I still don't have a car, I've moved place since then. I go to Tesco every 2 weeks to do my food shopping. Distance = 207 miles, journey time = 5 hours each way. Call me silly.
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(Ok, I admit that I didn't travel all those distance just for going to Tesco, but I can't deny that going to Tesco is one of the highlights of every of these trips that I am taking.)

Smile :)

2007-04-16T17:52:00.000Z

This picture makes me think of the Chinese version of the song "It's a small world". (The Chinese version has a similar, but slightly differnet meaning from the English version). It begins with this "Smile always, everyone, don't drop tears. Always have hope and do not fear."

Babies, aren't they so peaceful and trouble free?!~ We can all have peace and be trouble free too, if we want to.

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. (John 14:27)

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! (Philippians 4:4)

Stay alert

2007-04-16T16:56:00.000Z

Some recent incidences remind me of this verse in the bible:

"Many deceivers, who do not acknowledge Jesus Christ as coming in the flesh, have gone out into the world. Any such person is the deceiver and the antichrist." (2 John 1:7)

Even if you don't believe in Christ, there is a lesson that everyone can learn from this scripture - don't believe everything. Stay alert. Think and be critical about the information that we receive from other people, the media...etc., and think/find out about how reliable the source of the information is.

Of course we shouldn't over do it to the extent that we criticize everything and think that everyone's trying to deceive us. But we have to stay alert. This is to protect ourselves, and also those around us. As to other people, we are also sources of information.

Flowers

2007-04-15T16:14:00.000Z

"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these." (Matthew 6:28-29)

These are not lilies, or other flowers like roses or tulips which are well known for their beauty. But they are so pretty shimmering under the sun - the sun which made them noticeable to me, which made their growth possible.

Like the flowers, we are beautiful, because onto us a light is shone - the light that created us.

"Jesus said, "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." (John 8:12)
"Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. In him was life, and that life was the light of men. (John 1:3-4)

The good and the bad

2007-04-13T13:20:00.000Z

Good hamster

Article link

Good crocodile

Article link(Does it really work?)

Bad hamster

Article link

Bad crocodile

Article link

The animals, like us human, are not perfect.
"As for God, his way is perfect; the word of the LORD is flawless." (Psalm 18:30a)

Easter

2007-04-13T09:36:00.000Z

Just as I was going on about what I can and can't do without, this is an interesting piece of article that I came across:

"Has Easter become too commercial?"

"The Easter season I can do without, but I can't do without Jesus"

Electricity

2007-04-13T08:53:00.000Z

Last night the circuit of our wall sockets was tripped, again.
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My room went into dead silence with no laptop use.
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What I do everyday is quite routine - and all depends on the laptop - which depends on electricity from the wall socket.
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While I was getting depressed I picked up my mobile phone and sent a text message to you. Then I realised one thing; I am so attached to my laptop, but I am more attached to you. I can do without my laptop, but I cannot do without you.

The British Way

2007-04-13T08:43:00.000Z

Let's do it the British way, let's talk about the weather.
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It's gotten a lot warmer these few weeks. It's sunny everyday and the temperature's at around 20 degrees C with a gentle breeze. This is the most comfortable kind of weather for me; no sweat, no chills.
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As the weather gets warmer, my craving for fresh fruits and vegetables is back..

Oh..something's missing here, it's CREAM!~

Quote of the day

2007-04-10T19:44:00.000Z

"How ever safe a building is made to be, you put a person in there, it's not safe anymore", said the technical director of a famous consultancy firm.

Our Lab group

2007-03-21T10:18:00.000Z

Another picture...I think it's self-explanatory...

Tortilla

2007-03-20T22:52:00.000Z

A picture says a thousand words...

The warmest and best tasting tortilla wrap!!~~

Family

2007-02-21T20:53:00.000Z

One of the many kinds of love is love within a family.
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Since the day we were born, we give and receive support from our family; we give and receive love from our family.
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Family members may live far apart. But no matter how far the distance is, the bond remains strong; we continue to support each other, we continue to love each other.
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Families expand. They expand when new members are born. They expand when different families are “joined”. We give and receive support from the bigger family; we give and receive love from the bigger family.
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Family members may die and leave this world. But they would live forever in our hearts. We would remember the support that we gave and received from them; we would remember the love that we gave and received from them.
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We are here because of one another.
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Appreciate those who are supporting you and loving you. And let those around you appreciate you for your support and love.

Lost

2007-01-13T20:40:00.000Z

I am...lost...
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I think it's too much thinking again...
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I was thinking...how much should I work?  How much work is enough?  8 hours a day?
10 hours a day?  16 hours a day?  Or work till I drop?
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At times like this, I usually follow a good example. For example, I would usually follow the way of someone who works on the same thing as I do, and is successful.  I would recognise the way they do things as standard and follow. I would consider doing a bit more than they do is enough, just above standard.
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But now, there is no one to follow. What everyone is doing are different and in the same way, what I am doing is unique. So how much is enough? I am left on my own this time. I need to set my own standard. And therefore I am lost. I have never set a standard for myself before...I am trying now...but it seems to be very hard...or maybe the standard that I set is so high that it is unrealistic? Sometimes people tell me that "you have worked so hard" "you cannot do that much work in one day, it's not right..." And now the problem changes direction, to trust. When people say these to me I usually just reply them with a smile, or say that actually I haven't worked quite enough yet. I don't trust what they are telling me, that I have done enough already...because I still can't see the result of my work...I still can't see what I have done already is leading to...and so I must do more...
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And I guess, this time, the standard is work till I can see the result...be it 8 hours a day, 10 hours a day, 16 hours a day or work till I drop...it's work till the result comes.

Christmas 2006

2007-01-06T16:47:00.000Z

Christmas, it was Christmas.

Christmas, is a season of celebration.

Christmas, is a season to remember;

Christmas, is a season of reminder.

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To remember, this Christmas, was your first Christmas in the truth.

To remember, this Christmas, was our first Christmas together.

To remember, this Christmas, reminded us an important thing: Jesus, is the reason to remember.

Irreplaceable

2006-12-12T23:46:00.000Z

However much work I make myself do...however I try to concentrate on something else...however busy I keep myself...all of these are not taking effect...you are simply...irreplaceable...

A dear friend

2006-11-07T19:56:00.000Z

This morning I was chatting with a dear friend of mine.
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She’s been hurt, badly hurt. After listening to her story, I couldn’t help but burst into tears.
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How can he do such horrible things to her? How can he just do what he wants and ignore her feelings?
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Perhaps this is a lesson to us all - Whatever it is that we are going to do or think (yes, do or THINK), put other people into consideration before going ahead with it. It may hurt other people deeply. No matter how reasonable it looks, avoid doing it if we know that it is going to hurt somebody. Do not hurt someone and only realise how wrong we are when it is too late. It will create a deep wound in one and a deep regret in another...

Thank you~

2006-11-06T20:46:00.000Z

"You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
you raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up, to more than I can be..."

Wound Healing

2006-11-01T21:10:00.000Z

Today I was in this interesting seminar where the speaker told us about some forefront researches in wound healing.
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It was a very enjoyable seminar...and hopefully not too long from now, we can have our wounds healed faster with the help of some drugs...and hopefully we will have drugs that can help to heal just any kind of wounds....any...

2006-10-30T20:54:00.000Z

Today...the first time in my life...I had a nose bleed...
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Anyone know/remember a game called "bungee run"? There's a soft plastic blown up running track, and the runners are tied to their waist a bungee rope from the back of the track. Then the runner tries to run with as much strength as one can against the pulling power of the rope.
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The further you pull, the further the tension builds up in the rope, the harder the body would be thrown back to the starting end afterwards. Luckily, it is made of very soft material.
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What would happen if it isn't soft? And what if, it snaps?

The Sea - X

2006-10-22T23:20:00.000Z

"Dance like no one is watching, and love like you have never been hurt..."
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"Welcome to The Magnificent Magic Show! Today, we offer you our most infamous performance - The Great Escape!..."
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Off the TV I turned. It's time for some rests...
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"...Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief."

The Sea - IX

2006-10-10T22:00:00.000Z

On the deck, I can look so far away, so many new things to see…
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But…it has gotten cold and windy, the sea is rough…Without you here protecting me, I cannot face it…
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I have decided to go back into the cabin. It is warm, it is safe, and I am staying in here, thinking about you…
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To be continued…

The Sea - VIII

2006-09-07T19:18:00.000Z

Across the ocean, I am missing you. Across the ocean, I am thinking of you. Across the ocean, you are speaking to me. Across the ocean, you are writing to me:

"The joy of the ocean, lies not in the sea but in the sand.

For without the sand, the ocean has no base for it's beauty.

My life is joyful not because of myself.
Just like the ocean, my life is granted by the Lord and my joy is because of you.

Being an ocean apart, I can still choose to speak a thousand words that have no meanings
However, I choose to remain silence and speak only of words that has a thousand meanings

"I love you"

(My love, is made perfect because of Him and you - Edmund)"

The Sea - VII

2006-09-03T23:16:00.000Z

Settled down in the boat, my tears fell. It took just 2 minutes walking from where you were to the boat. But I missed you already.
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On the boat sailed, away from the harbour, away from the city. My tears dried. I started thinking. Thought about the Creator, thought about life, thought about you. Thought about the Creator gave me life, thought about He gave you to me, me to you....
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Boat parked. I got out of the boat. Nearly there.
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Settled down in the second boat, my tears fell. For this song rang in my head, "..You have assigned me my portion and my cup; You have made my lot secure...I have set the Lord always before me. Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken...Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices...with eternal pleasures at your right hand."* - The tears of joy. Filled in my heart are the words of praise. Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you....
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Out of the boat. I am back. Sitting in my room, thinking. Once again, thinking about the Creator, thinking about life, thinking about you. Thinking about my life, thinking about your life, thinking about our life together. I miss you.
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To be continued...

*(Stream of Praise - In Your Hands; Psalm 16)

The Sea - VI

2006-08-20T23:05:00.000Z

All is still, all is quiet. It pains me being apart from you. Warm tears came running down my cheeks.
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Then I heard the Creator said to me, “Do not be sad. Have faith in me. For what I have given to you, I will protect.”
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Standing in the ocean, the gentle breeze blows. It brings to me your voice; it brings me close to you:
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“Now that we are an ocean apart
I can no longer see or hear you
All that is holding truth
Is my love towards you

With the great blessings from the Creator
We are standing on the same ocean
Though distance apart
I can still feel the waves coming from you
Each waves
Which carriers a little of your thoughts
and an infinity of your love”
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To be continued...

The Sea - V

2006-06-27T00:06:00.000Z

As if he can hear my voice of my heart; as if he can feel what I feel, once again he speaks to me. Holding both of my hands, looking into my eyes, he took a deep breath and said,
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“Holding your hands standing by the beach, I enjoy the calmness and tranquility with you around.

Under the moon, you look beautiful. You are beautiful and, you will forever be beautiful in my heart. You are beautiful not because of your outer shell but it’s your love towards me.

Starring at the vast ocean, I understand we may be lost at times. When that time comes, please believe in the hand that is holding onto you. Though the sound may get carried away by the fury wind, please remember that the voice of the Creator and the voice of me will always be whispering beside your ear.

After holding on your gentle hands for so long, finally, I regained my courage to speak to you. I remember the pasts; I treasure today and for tomorrow, please let me hold your hands for I am in love with you.

With the sun rising up, I took up the courage to tell you this.

“I LOVE YOU””
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To be continued...

The Sea - IV

2006-06-22T23:51:00.000Z

I still could not speak. I did not know what to say. I held on tighter to the hand. I did not want to let go. I do not want to let go.
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So much is going through my mind…Yes, fate is out of our control. I do not know what tomorrow will be like. But at this very moment, I know one thing. Closing my eyes, breathing the salty scent of the sea…I can feel it - the warmth, travelling from the hand to my heart. I can feel it - the smile, on my face which tells me I am in love.
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I do not want to let go.
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To be continued…

The Sea - III

2006-06-07T15:02:00.001Z

I froze, I felt a lump in my throat. I squeezed the hand hard. Silent tears ran gently down my cheek. And the voice continued...
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"It's tranquil and relaxing, standing by the edge of the blue ocean.

The beach and the swaying trees, they remind me of how beautiful and peaceful you are in my heart.

Holding hands, we stare at the sun setting down to the bottom of the ocean.

You may notice my palm is sweating. It is sweating for I am trying to hold on tight to your hands. I do not know what is my fate, but I am afraid of letting go.

I do not know when fate and the tidal waves will sweep me away from you, but I know I am trying to hold your hand tight.

I cannot promise I will keep holding your hands as fate is out of my control, but I will promise you, that from today onwards, I will hold you in my heart forever."
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To be continued...

The Sea - II

2006-06-05T13:59:00.000Z

It's the sea. Once again I am standing here looking at it. I want to dive into it.
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My last trip to the depth of the cooling ocean was at Christmas. I nearly drowned. I got hurt on the beach and I dived into the vast ocean for its comfort. But, I got stuck at the bottom, too weak to free myself. Starting to lose my senses, I gave up struggling. I'd just let things be. In the worse case scenario, I'd just be a dead weight there forever. Didn't sound too bad to me.
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Then, I saw a hand stretching towards me from above. I grabbed it. It pulled me up onto the dry land. Once again, I was standing on the rocky beach.
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Felt lucky to be back here again, I tried to dry my soaking wet body, I let the wound heal.
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Here I am fully recovered. Still holding the hand that saved me, I am watching the sea again. Somehow, I want to dive into it again. I miss the tranquility. I want to dive in...I want to dive in...
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A soft, gentle voice is speaking into my ear...
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"I stand by the sea, watching the waves sweeping my soaked feet. Cold, the waves, together with the silk-like sands slowly sips through my toes.

The blue ocean, the vast sea, the gentle breeze slowly sweeps through all my senses. Looking at the sea, problems seems so small to an extent it doesn’t matter anymore.

I could not remember when I started to stand by the sea, but I could remember why I am here.

Holding your hands, I don’t feel lonely anymore for I am here because you love the sea, and I am here because I love you."
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To be continued...

The Sea

2006-06-03T07:50:00.000Z

It is a beach. It is a bit rocky. It is usually quiet. I come here everyday. I rest on the rocks. I watch people walk their dogs. I watch the sea...
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I love the sea. Sometimes I dive into it briefly. I love being surrounded by the water. The water cools my head. I enjoy the tranquility.
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To be continued...

Praise the Lord!!

2006-05-24T09:07:00.000Z

Lord thank you, thank you, thank you!!~

Lord you are merciful, you are faithful, you listen to prayers, you are wonderful!!

Your ways are higher than our ways, your thoughts are higher than our thouhgts. Lord please continue to lead the way....

Back in the UK

2006-05-23T09:01:00.000Z

The past 2 weeks went so fast I felt like I haven't left the UK at all. So much happened and so much is going through my head now.

A decision was made.

My feeling now is a bit complicated. Emotionally I didn't want to let go...but looking at it sensibly...the problem that exists just wouldn't get better...that's why this decision was made...and both of us think it is the best for us now...

I do not know what tomorrow will be like...but I know HE holds the future, and I know HE holds my hands. We are all selfish, only God's love never fails.

A Young Man's Tale

2006-05-02T13:28:00.000Z

So on Sunday me and a bunch of friends were chatting with each other as usual in tea fellowship. And suddenly I got this idea of pulling this young man's outer coat's left sleeve real hard. As a result, his outer coat plus other clothes worn inside were all being pulled to a side revealing his bare shoulder.

And this is where it worths blogging about.

We screamed.

Not because he is particularly well-built or his skin is smooth as silk. But to our horror, there's a GREEN BRA STRAP.

Sorry, but I can't help it:

Hahahahahahahaahahahahahahaahahahahahaa~~~~

(well later he explained that it's his wallet which he carries strapping across his shoulder...)

Because He Lives

2006-04-17T11:27:00.000Z

Because He lives I can face tomorrow.
Because He lives all fear is gone.
Because I know He holds the future.
And life is worth the living just because He lives.

Happy Easter~

The Dinner Group

2006-04-10T13:13:00.000Z

I've been having dinner with the same group of friends ever since the start of this academic year. There are 8 of us but it is not often that we have all the 8 people turning up for dinner as everyone are busy at their own things – study, work, social life, emotional ups and downs (well that's just me perhaps) etc.

We are a highly organised group; food purchasing is done centrally by our team leader Bobo – who is also our treasurer and the head chef. Under the head chef there is one assistant chef (Ed) and one trainee chef (Simon). We also have a rice department headed by Kev (who is also the public relations officer) and I am the assistant. Being hygienic is our first priority and no one has suffered from any form of food poisoning so far. (And we always clean up the kitchen properly after use.)

The atmosphere is different every night. Sometimes we just cook and eat quietly and after that we go back to doing our own things individually. Sometimes we love being together so much that we keep chatting and laughing throughout the whole dinner and no one wants to leave the kitchen even long after we finish the food. Occasionally we invite friends over - making the dinner group even bigger, chats even longer, noise even louder.

This is one important part of my university life. What a memory to treasure.

A new start

2006-04-06T11:27:00.000Z

I have decided to move my blog because that previous one is covered with advertisements...and it looks ugly...

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It's Easter time now and most of my friends are on holiday. I don't know whether this is the first time...but I am actually glad that I am not on holiday like they are. Maybe 'cos I skived so much at the beginning of this year and I miss being at work?! Um...maybe rather because it keeps me busy, and saying "I need to work" is a great excuse for escaping from activities that I don't want to join...

Another blog space...

2006-04-05T17:07:00.000Z

Haha...I can't believe I am getting another blog space...

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Maybe...just maybe...I will stop using the other blogs and just concentrate on this one...haha

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Wanna change the look of this blog...um...later maybe...

Life in a Shell

Birds

BCCC

The Pit

Smoke

排毒美顏寶

Important people

The end of the tunnel

BCCC

1st submission!~

Closer~

Recent activities:

Yu Yang/He HanBin

~Kangaroo meat~

Food..food...

♥～らぶらぶとんどん～♥

Developers

All I Once Held Dear (Knowing You)

Genoa

Last 3 days~

It worked!~

Yay!~

30 more~

Just a bit more...

It's been a while!~

More about this song...

當你孤單你會想起誰

Weak point

Heresies

Fast forward

What would happen next

Take and give

2008

Merry Christmas~

Moving the brain a bit..

The faces

Help Father

When I look into your holiness

Cold~

more...more...and more!!~

Books

la la la la~~~la la la la~~

My weekend~

Changes

Good job

Challenge

The spirit

Rant

I am back~~~

Life is...

2 Timothy

They say that your eyes are the windows to your soul...

Fighters

Chicken

Thank you Jesus

Bobbies

Dinner~

Good night~

When I was young...

Junk

Freedom

National Pride

One World One Dream

MALDI-TOF

I love Tesco

Smile :)

Stay alert

Flowers

The good and the bad

Easter

Electricity

The British Way

Quote of the day

Our Lab group

Tortilla

Family

Lost

Christmas 2006

Irreplaceable

A dear friend

la la la la~la la la la

(well later he explained that it's his wallet which he carries strapping across his shoulder...)