Life in a Shell
                     - Shell of Love

Tuesday, February 24, 2009


It's been a while since I last felt that I HAVE to find pen and paper to write some thoughts down. (I was on the train and didn't have my computer with me...) So this is what I wrote...
With a headache and feeling extremely tired and mentally exhausted, I still can't bring myself to rest. My heart is pounding so fast and holding back my tears, I wish I will arrive home quick and cry my heart out. I'm having such mixed feelings - but the element of sorrow isn't one of them. I'm overjoyed, but confused. I am excited about the changes that are to come, but I am also afraid of having to leave what I am at now. I don't want to leave home - BCCC.
BCCC, the place where I've gone through so much. Ups and downs, laughters and tears. And most importantly, this is where I turned to Christ, where I was baptised, where I receive my spiritual food, where I receive love and learn to give, where I have fellowship with brothers and sisters, where we support each other and grow in the love and words of God.
I can't stop my tears now. But I finally realise why my tears are flowing - it's thankful tears. Thanks Father for what He has done for me and will do for me, for all the blessings that I've received and yet to receive, for all the joy that I have because of knowing Him. Whatever lies ahead I need not be afraid because He'll lead me. He'll use me for His glory when I follow His plan. He is my rock, my strength, my shield, my comfort my all. Praise the Lord for He is worthy of our praise. Glory be to God and may everything that has breath praise Him!
"Shout for joy and sing your praises to the King,
Lift your hands and let your Hallelujah ring,
Come before His throne to worship and adore,
Enter joyfully now the presence of the Lord.

You are my Creator, You are my Deliverer,
You are my Redeemer You are Lord,
And You are my Healer,
You are my Provider,
You are my Shepherd and my Guide,
Jesus Lord and King I worship you."