Life in a Shell
                     - Shell of Love

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Fast forward

This week has been...very special. It's like life has fast forwarded that it's such rich experience of life.
At the start of the week I was very excited and full of hope. I could finally get my hands onto doing an experiment which I have waited for 6 months. The data which I have been looking forward to getting, and also needed very badly for the research, could finally all be generated by end of the week.
Then it started to go downhill. The first set of data came through on Tuesday and it's not what I have expected. Not holding my hopes high for the rest of the experiment, I still had to finish the whole experiment for the rest of the week. Thursday got another set of data, similarly diappointing results. Then on Friday, the final set of data came out. Just when I thought it couldn't get any worse, the worst appeared in the experiment results.
Then so much went through my head. What can I do next for the research? Is it still do-able? Can I change the direction of the project (but now, at the 4th year?) Can I still graduate? If I can't gradaute, what would happen to my life? Would I still be able to find a job? I felt dizzy when all these questions went through my head, getting more and more pessimistic.
But then, these all stopped when these popped up in my head:

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." (Matthew 6:34)

"Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest? "Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith!" (Luke 12:22-28)

Then I calmed down, and entered the weekend, which is so rich.
- I had the chance to chat with lots of our department's prospective students; they are young, and full of hope, enthusiasm, dreams, working towards their goal with all their efforts. It's so encouraging chatting to them.

- Then received a phone call from him. Knowing that he had such a good and productive time during the long break and has now safely returned. I was so moved when he told me about how good it was seeing his parents, how important his parents are to him, how he loves them and how much he wants to do for them. And of course it's good to hear his voice again after a month.

- Then came student fellowship - new friends want to join our church; seeing the growth of brothers and sisters, how gifted they are, how they work hard in developing their gifts to serve God; how some of them may still has a lot that they don't understand but are willing and humble to learn; how some of them maybe going through hard times; how we all care about each other, tending each other's needs...etc

- Saturday night got a phone call from a sister in Christ, how blessed her life is, how she is going through decision making, how she is holding her faith even going through hard times, how she cares about and feel for her friends, how she's panicking but find peace in God...

- Sunday - death, birth, illness, birthdays, anniversaries, growth, difficulties, unity, kindness...
Thank you Father for giving me such a bad, but also rich and blessed week.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

What would happen next

They published the cartoons, got blamed. They apologised, case closed - or not.

Two years later, there's a plot to kill the cartoonist. They retaliate by re-publishing the cartoons. I wonder what will happen next.

It seems that it'll be a vicious cycle.