Life in a Shell
                     - Shell of Love

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Lost

I am...lost...
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I think it's too much thinking again...
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I was thinking...how much should I work?  How much work is enough?  8 hours a day? 
10 hours a day?  16 hours a day?  Or work till I drop?
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At times like this, I usually follow a good example.  For example, I would usually follow the way of someone who works on the same thing as I do, and is successful.  I would recognise the way they do things as standard and follow.  I would consider doing a bit more than they do is enough, just above standard.
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But now, there is no one to follow.  What everyone is doing are different and in the same way, what I am doing is unique.  So how much is enough?  I am left on my own this time.  I need to set my own standard.  And therefore I am lost.  I have never set a standard for myself before...I am trying now...but it seems to be very hard...or maybe the standard that I set is so high that it is unrealistic?  Sometimes people tell me that "you have worked so hard"  "you cannot do that much work in one day, it's not right..."  And now the problem changes direction, to trust.  When people say these to me I usually just reply them with a smile, or say that actually I haven't worked quite enough yet.  I don't trust what they are telling me, that I have done enough already...because I still can't see the result of my work...I still can't see what I have done already is leading to...and so I must do more...
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And I guess, this time, the standard is work till I can see the result...be it 8 hours a day, 10 hours a day, 16 hours a day or work till I drop...it's work till the result comes.

Saturday, January 06, 2007

Christmas 2006

Christmas, it was Christmas.

Christmas, is a season of celebration.

Christmas, is a season to remember;

Christmas, is a season of reminder.

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To remember, this Christmas, was your first Christmas in the truth.

To remember, this Christmas, was our first Christmas together.

To remember, this Christmas, reminded us an important thing: Jesus, is the reason to remember.